Ratio of One to the World

"Would you care for coffee sir?
I can't help but notice your weary head."
"What's wrong with sleep" I answered her,
"I think I'll have some milk instead."

Perhaps

I wonder if it would be more appealing to say less - to not explain myself. How would it be if I just said whatever the heck I wanted and didn't give it a second thought?

I think I'll try it. The people that I try so hard to please with my unending explanations could actually take it upon themselves to hear what I mean. I don't owe the entire world an explanation, do I?

just thoughts. I'll decide later.

Today was so good!

I got the greatest news today! I'm so excited!

This feels like a dream.... but I'll take it if it is!!

Ever After You

easy come and easy go
has never been the case
dreams of you are hard to erase.

call me crazy
call me mad
call me what you will
but im sane enough
to know that i love you still

they say that life goes on
but ive been dead since you've been gone
i think they were wrong
so who's the fool

i am ever after you
always ever after you
just tell me what i have to do
is there a way
to be happy ever after you?

there is no psychology
and no amount of prayers
that can cure the pain when you're not there

cause this is not supposed to be
how our love should look
after you have closed the story book.

they say that life goes on
but ive been dead since you've been gone
i think they were wrong
so whats the use

i am ever after you
always ever after you
just tell me what I have to do
is there a way
to be happy ever after you?


From someone who doesn't want to feel replaceable.

Kinda not loving life

I don't see my friends too often anymore. I don't know that it matters. I usually choose to spend time with my mom instead, but I guess it doesn't make much difference. My friends are fine, and my mom is still sad. I just can't put up an act anymore. But I do miss some of you very much. I want to be my old self, but I can't bring myself to go back.

I miss you. I want to sit beside you and hug you. I don't have anything important to say, I just miss you being in my life. Thank you for not getting up and walking away from me... I hope I can sit next to you again soon.

Slipping, Falling, 10,000 Children

So, I slipped on the stairs today. My leg hurts quite a bit, but I suppose it's manageable. I have a nice black/blue/purple color on various parts of my body though. Teach me to wear socks in the house! It's a highly dangerous area. Could have been worse I guess, eh?

Anyway, good news and... just... news. News: Matt Wertz is engaged? Congratulations you. (I'm slightly bummed by this, for purely illogical reasons, though no less real). The good news? Dave Barnes' new CD came out today. So here I pay tribute to my first favorite song off it:

10,000 children and all I can do is just talk
While my house is full of possessions that make ... (I couldn't pick up the rest of this line)

Everyone tells me that I'm not to blame
Why do I still feel the same?

Only love can save us all
Only love can save us all
Save us all

10,000 children are my invitation to change
To continue in excess now suddenly feels oh so strange

Prayers and money should not be confused
But I pray that both still are used

Only love can save us all
Only love can save us all

What will become of me?
Inside that history

10,000 children and all I can do is just talk

Stevens

1. Concerning the UFO Sighting Near Highland, Illinois
   
2. The Black Hawk War, or, How to Demolish an Entire Civilization and Still Feel Good About Yourself in the Morning, or, We Apologize for the Inconvenience but You're Going to Have to Leave Now, or, 'I Have Fought the Big Knives and Will Continue to Fight Them Until They Are Off Our Lands!'
   
3. Come On! Feel the Illinoise!
   
   1. The World's Columbian Exposition
   2. Carl Sandburg Visits Me in a Dream
4. John Wayne Gacy, Jr.
   
5. Jacksonville
   
6. A Short Reprise for Mary Todd, Who Went Insane, but for Very Good Reasons
   
7. Decatur, or, Round of Applause for Your Step Mother!
   
8. One Last 'Whoo-Hoo!' for the Pullman
   
9. Chicago
   
10. Casimir Pulaski Day
11. To the Workers of the Rock River Valley Region, I Have an Idea Concerning Your Predicament [and it involves tube socks, a paper airplane, and twenty-two able-bodied men.]
12. The Man of Metropolis Steals Our Hearts
13. Prairie Fire That Wanders About
14. A Conjunction of Drones Simulating the Way in Which Sufjan Stevens Has an Existential Crisis in the Great Godfrey Maze
15. The Predatory Wasp of the Palisades Is Out to Get Us!
16. They Are Night Zombies!! They Are Neighbors!! They Have Come Back from the Dead!! Ahhhh!
17. Let's Hear That String Part Again, Because I Don't Think They Heard It All the Way Out in Bushnell
18. In This Temple as in the Hearts of Man for Whom He Saved the Earth
    
19. The Seer's Tower
20. The Tallest Man, the Broadest Shoulders
    1. The Great Frontier
    2. Come to Me Only with Playthings Now
21. Riffs and Variations on a Single Note for Jelly Roll, Earl Hines, Louis Armstrong, Baby Dodds, and the King of Swing, to Name a Few
22. Out of Egypt, into the Great Laugh of Mankind, and I Shake the Dirt from My Sandals as I Run