CRAP

Now this, this was NOT supposed to happen!!!

I feel the desire aching in my heart. Every time I learn more, that desire grows. I want soo much, and I fear that I will never have it. But for the first time, I heard the response that a father would give. When I expressed my desire in a joking way, the response was first a laugh. "You'll take that back someday.." And he said, "Well I hope so. If that's really what you want, then I hope I do."

I want to cry and scream, and I want to throw my arms around for a hug. I love, and I feel the need. I want to fulfill the need of another, because I know it's there. I want to be her.