Discouraged

I feel very discouraged. It is as if I am not measuring up, and not changing to do so. At this point, I'm not sure if it's true - that I'm failing to do my job - or if it is a lie. I feel as though I am not even doing as much as I used to, and I hate it. I hate failing to mature. I hate that I may be making no difference - and that I am not who I need to be.