How Lame Am I?

I'm crying again because something that I wanted backfired.

This SUCKS. Friends will be enemies?

TOMS

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CRAP

Now this, this was NOT supposed to happen!!!

I feel the desire aching in my heart. Every time I learn more, that desire grows. I want soo much, and I fear that I will never have it. But for the first time, I heard the response that a father would give. When I expressed my desire in a joking way, the response was first a laugh. "You'll take that back someday.." And he said, "Well I hope so. If that's really what you want, then I hope I do."

I want to cry and scream, and I want to throw my arms around for a hug. I love, and I feel the need. I want to fulfill the need of another, because I know it's there. I want to be her.

So deserves a post

Watch him do "The Wertz," as I have officially called it. (Yes, I do have the authority to do that)

I offer.

This is all I have to give.

I promise to stay by your side forever, and honestly, no matter what happens, I will support and help you. It is my wish to help you fulfill your dream, your call, your purpose, for this is mine. Ask anyone who knows me well, and you will find that I will stick with you. I will, can't you see that? I will love you, the way that you are to be loved. My life I will lay down, my heart at your feet. Your passions I will value, and I will seek to serve your servant heart.

Without you, my heart grows sick. I can't be who I am meant to be without you. I need you. I need your protection, love, leadership, covering, passion, heart. All of you. But I hope you will not see it as a nuisance. I don't bear my heart to many, but I fear that it I go any longer without expressing this, I will die. I won't die physically, but my heart might die. It is suffocating as time goes on, because no one knows it, and no one seeks it. Please save me from my loneliness.

My return will be my whole heart. Not another has had it, and never will another. You will be my love, my husband. I will care about you more than my own life.

More

So I know I'm on a Matt Wertz craze, but what you have to understand is how much his lyrics mean to me. I wished I could express these thoughts even a fraction as well as he does! Thank you sooo much, Matt!


Come Away

And I know you're weary
I know you're worn
And I know your broken hearts been torn
And I see you weeping
I know your fears
But I am the smile at the end of the tears

And sweet, sweet child
I wanna hold you awhile
And come away with me

And I know your troubles
I know your mess
And I know the words you can't express
I see your doubts
I know your pain
But I am the answer that takes it all away

Oh, sweet sweet child
I wanna hold you awhile
And come away with me

That Was Before the Day Forever Died

I can't believe you've got no tears upon your face
While mine is soaking wet, making up for your lack I guess

Red Meets Blue, a second look

A song for a Savior. Matt Wertz never ceases to amaze me.

You keep distracting me with that beauty
Leaving me wanting more
Reminding me of my duty
To lock these eyes to yours

I've never known a love so true
I want to see all of you
When green meets red and red meets blue
I want to see all of you

Sunlight dances with the distance
In her squinty eyed shoes
And I'm chasing down horizon
In hopes of being danced with too

I've never known a love so true
I want to see all of you
When green meets red and red meets blue
I want to see all of you

Daylight sings all that morning air brings
And I'm lost
I'm lost inside you

And I've never known a love so true
And I want to see all of you, all of you, all of you
When green meets red and red meets blue
I want to see all of you, all of you, all of you