Ratio of One to the World

"Would you care for coffee sir?
I can't help but notice your weary head."
"What's wrong with sleep" I answered her,
"I think I'll have some milk instead."

Perhaps

I wonder if it would be more appealing to say less - to not explain myself. How would it be if I just said whatever the heck I wanted and didn't give it a second thought?

I think I'll try it. The people that I try so hard to please with my unending explanations could actually take it upon themselves to hear what I mean. I don't owe the entire world an explanation, do I?

just thoughts. I'll decide later.

Today was so good!

I got the greatest news today! I'm so excited!

This feels like a dream.... but I'll take it if it is!!

Ever After You

easy come and easy go
has never been the case
dreams of you are hard to erase.

call me crazy
call me mad
call me what you will
but im sane enough
to know that i love you still

they say that life goes on
but ive been dead since you've been gone
i think they were wrong
so who's the fool

i am ever after you
always ever after you
just tell me what i have to do
is there a way
to be happy ever after you?

there is no psychology
and no amount of prayers
that can cure the pain when you're not there

cause this is not supposed to be
how our love should look
after you have closed the story book.

they say that life goes on
but ive been dead since you've been gone
i think they were wrong
so whats the use

i am ever after you
always ever after you
just tell me what I have to do
is there a way
to be happy ever after you?


From someone who doesn't want to feel replaceable.

Kinda not loving life

I don't see my friends too often anymore. I don't know that it matters. I usually choose to spend time with my mom instead, but I guess it doesn't make much difference. My friends are fine, and my mom is still sad. I just can't put up an act anymore. But I do miss some of you very much. I want to be my old self, but I can't bring myself to go back.

I miss you. I want to sit beside you and hug you. I don't have anything important to say, I just miss you being in my life. Thank you for not getting up and walking away from me... I hope I can sit next to you again soon.

Slipping, Falling, 10,000 Children

So, I slipped on the stairs today. My leg hurts quite a bit, but I suppose it's manageable. I have a nice black/blue/purple color on various parts of my body though. Teach me to wear socks in the house! It's a highly dangerous area. Could have been worse I guess, eh?

Anyway, good news and... just... news. News: Matt Wertz is engaged? Congratulations you. (I'm slightly bummed by this, for purely illogical reasons, though no less real). The good news? Dave Barnes' new CD came out today. So here I pay tribute to my first favorite song off it:

10,000 children and all I can do is just talk
While my house is full of possessions that make ... (I couldn't pick up the rest of this line)

Everyone tells me that I'm not to blame
Why do I still feel the same?

Only love can save us all
Only love can save us all
Save us all

10,000 children are my invitation to change
To continue in excess now suddenly feels oh so strange

Prayers and money should not be confused
But I pray that both still are used

Only love can save us all
Only love can save us all

What will become of me?
Inside that history

10,000 children and all I can do is just talk