And woe is me, for I am unclean
But my eyes have seen the Holy King
And He cleansed my lips right before my eyes
And the pillars shook as the angels cried:
You are holy, Oh so holy...
I have come to a new place, and in this place I glimpse see His glory. Oh what a sight, my majestic Lord! Oh Lord of me, Lord of my heart, take all that I am!
There are so many times that God totally perplexes me. I don't know what to do with Him, because I can't understand the mystery that is God. Frequently He completely blows my mind, and I am left in awe of who He is and what He does for me daily.
I have to come to grips with a new concept. I am learning more and more how much of a mystery that God is. And you see, the problem lies not in that, but in that I have never been fond of surprises. I like to understand things, to the point that not knowing will almost drive me crazy. However, I have an idea:
What if God is not a mystery to be solved, but a mystery to be admired?
Now of course I don't mean that we stop learning about who God is, but what if I were to take a step back and simply admire His work, with all its complexities and simplicities? What if I stop trying to figure out what He's up to, and simply enjoy the story that He has taken such care to write?
Drew's right. I don't appreciate mystery enough. I intend on changing that though, because 1) life is much more beautiful that way, and 2) faith and trust becomes so much easier.
When there are coincidences that seem to point to more, I feel the need to step back and quit analyzing things. With enough reason to cease doubting, can I give up my quest to figure things out and enjoy whatever He's doing? Must I always be striving?
This is my goal: to enjoy the story for its beauty, not just to get to the ending.
