It's getting a little bit better...

I've started talking to allowing myself to think again, which is good.  In doing so, I've learned a couple of things.  So, regarding abandonment.

My personal hell:

People who are primarily Internalizers have problems with:

• Depression
• Other-Centeredness
• Care-taking and approval-seeking
• Lack of adequate boundaries
• Have difficulty saying "no" for fear of abandonment
• And, lack of a sense of personal power

And the paralysis will be defeated.